my smu friends are nut cases. we are planning to go for supper tonight, and mr smartie toh jiamin is informing everyone of supper and the suggested venues via.....*drumroll* EMAIL! its classic la. hahahahhaa.

craving for some delicious oily char kuey teow now. hahhaha. byee world!

whee!

my poor sis just came back from camp yest night! and guess what?? shes off to camp again!!! this time all the way till sat!!! wowwee!!!! i can like have the whole room to myself for e whole week lor!!! and two beds!! wheee!! whee!!! whee!!!

nitey world! off i go to the bedS and pillowS. note the plural form. WAHAHAHA.

busybusybumblebee

its once again a lazy saturday. haha. have had such a super bz week i was at a loss on what to do today cause i had nothing to do when i woke up NATURALLY at about 11 plus in e morning. several thoughts flew thro my brain at e same timeL

- meet the girls or jon to do work at music garage?

- meet preggz for coffee/dinner?

- ask ivan out for movie?

- ask lily out for dinner?

- go shopping alone and go library myself?

- pack the room and wardrobe?

- go my aunts house for dinner?

- tell habil(resturant manager) i can work tonight cause he needs help?

- see whether the 2c ppl wanna hang out tonight?

and after having such a blardi hard time deciding what to do, i gave up and messaged preggy and lijun and still cldnt decide. im such a loser lor.

den my answer came in a form of a phonecall.

tonight theres praying at my aunts house! so there i shall fly for dinner!!! =)

i was so delighted at not having to make a decision myself!!! like woohooo!!! haha

k la im a loser.

anyway so the week flew past with me working for most of e time.

tues - met jon to do some music sch stuff..den tried to help the girls out with their singing. den we ended up watching loads of russell peters videos and margaret cho also. hahaha. and not much work was done in e end. haha.

wed - i worked like mad. went to the office in e morning and worked till5 and den rushed down to the restaurant, half dead and worked till night. den went to music garage to help the girls out witht heir singing again. ended the day with delicious tau hway. rochor tau hway aunties are damn nice la! cause we went at around 1 and they were already closed. but seeing that we came all e way, they set up a table just for us and told us to eat and leave it there and they will clear it all tomorrow. so nice right. everyone go there and eat!!!

thurs - worked like crazy again. haha. was supposed to work from 12 to 6. but because someone cldnt come to work, kind old me decided to help dem cause it was freaking bz.. so i worked in e rest from 12 to 10. 10 hrs. nonstop. den i went to e music sch again to help them with their singing. haha. but indeed its v satisfying to see them improving with every practice. esp mao mi. hahaa. this girl there called lijun. she has improved so much since the first time i heard her sing. good job girl! =) and this other very giggly lil girl called waiyin. shes damn cute. she reminds me of ronald macdonalds when she laughs. hahaa. she stays till like almost 12 everynight to accompany lijun can. funny girls.

fri - had work again at 12. but had t wake up earlier to send some courier slips. freaking tired man. walked like damn alot at raffles place to the three places. and it was drizzling somemore. i was so stressed cause i was running late for work tt iu went to buy myself some chocolate. the mini beligium choc box in watsons for 1.95. and i finished the entire box in a jiffy. thats how stressed i was!!! den went to work and after work headed down to tampines for the sports day. was relaly tired out from the last few days so only watched while they played badmintion n table tennis. den headed to 85 for dinner! was lazy to walk to the further char kuew teow store and ate from a diff store. and it sucked la!!!! stupid. den headed off to the damn exciting playground with a few of the girls to play. damn fun!!! hahaa.

hope i get my bids this tiem round la!!! had to rebid for bp and decided to bid for ceo talks for fun! haha. oh and while working these few days, i saw alot fo smu ppl. the year 1s matriculating. got quite a few promising ones lor. serious. hahhaa.

realize now i really teng a few of the girls alot. like i treat them like my lil sisters. kinda like how i treat my cousins and alina. like takecare of them. shall buy dem some goodies tmr when i see dem! =)

and the world IS made up for very diverse ppl. and esp one particular asshole who mistreats the kindness that's given to him. making use of pple who love him. wake up ur idea asshole. ever heard of karma? it will all come back to u. A-L-L. too bad it seems like u are a lil apprehensive of me. if u ever try to pull a stunt on me, i swear u will hear my entire extensive library of abusive language rain on you like never before. for mistreating nice pple. bah!

worms.

thanks everyone for the words of concern. on hindsight, i think it was just pms. ha.=)
but anyway. haha. back here to blog. whee!

lets see whats been happening.. so fri was my bro's commencement ceremony. because we had only 4 tickets..my parents, my sis and my granny went. i promptly arrived after the whole ceremony and took one photo. hahahhaha. and ate the buffet spread la of cos. haha. its indeed interesting too see ur own brother decked in the gown.. and i do realize that im gonna don it soon. den while sending granny home.. me mom and granny actually had quite an indepth conversation on degrees. very interesting. hahaa. granny was also reminiscing bout my aunties and uncles graduation ceremonies. nostlagic huh.

den decided to go out with my parents instead of the sports day. afterall.. how often do both of dem get a day off right! so off we went to parkway. when we were young.. my parents used to bring the 3 of us there every sunday. to play the arcade and run ard. i think it was circus circus. haha. den i rem me n and my sis alwiz went ard on the carousel den my bro alwiz played some stupid gun game. ohwell. so we ended up shopping for groceries after a failed attempt to buy my dad new shoes. den me and my sis, tkaing chance of the rare opportunity we go grocery shopping with my parents, loaded the trolley with junk food. every single type possible. pissing my mom off. hahhaha. well. love my parents. =)

met the twoc ppl finally yesterday! everyone looks good! except for poor huiyi. she looks so shagged. and she hasnt evenbeen to camp that silly girl!!! talked bout world cup mostly. and debra says ziwei and jane says she looks like ronaldinho! hahahha. and shes in love with zidane! haha. simin's flying off in aug for her exchange but things look good for her! =) and qinying!!! haha.. handholding took place agian!! minus the flying bumblebee!! whee!!! haha..

owell. need to start preparing for work soon. looks like a bz week ahead. tmr need to meet jon for the super overdue workbook preparation. sorry dude!!!! =( den i have work at night. wed i need to go work at my aunts office cause they need me desperately(haha!) den work at the restaurant at night. thurs im workin till 6 at the restuarnt.. den going down to e music sch probably. and fri. working till 4.still have to decide between meeting my SMU pals for dinner or music sch sports day. hmm. how ah. i feel torn man.. damn.

which reminds me. jon's gonna send me cheesecake! whee! hahaha.

i was watching this kids animal show just now and clnt help but start laughing to myself hysterically la. it was abt this guy who was introduing to these two lil kids bout the star of the show today called.. something la. lets call him wormy. hahah. den right the guy was so excited he dropped wormy into one whole big bowl of gruesome crawling worms. hahaa. den he started sobbing and saying that without the star he will die and he proceeded to tell the kids to find out wormy from the big bowl of worms. it was damn funny la. the kids squirming and all. and calling out for wormy like really loudly. damn funny. ok. maybe not as funny to u all. but damn funny to me. hahaha.

world cups over. i stayed up all the wayu lor. until 5am can. i alwiz tot zidane was quite zai. like i like the way hes so calm and collected. like the lao jiao seh u know. den he had to do the cock triceratops bang u thing to the guy with the funny name that scored for italy. wah lau. i wonder what was going thro his mind. his last game ever in the world cup lei. and he got sent off. and i wanted france to win can. argh. but congrats to italy. they deserve it. end of worldcup mania. haha.

on the other hand! i got most of my bids for BOSS! except for the sci exploration shit. sian. i guess i can stick to my environmental sci. but the tot of doing it alone sounds blardi pathetic. and very lonesome. but owell at least i got the rest! the moreimpt ones! whee! hurray for BOSS for once! hahaha.

ok gotta rush to work!

i miss blondie suddenly! hope shes doing fine! =) blondie msg me if u are free k!

friendships.

yes the oh so independent minsy has her insecure moments. she does.

on one hand, im glad to see that u are having such a great life now. and im serious. no sour grapes at all.

on the other, i have no idea how u can cancel someone off ur life just like that. someone whom you used to spend so much of ur time with.

maybe i was never as impt to u as u were to me.

maybe. nah. not maybe. totally.

maybe the sacrifices i once made for u were all useless.

nah. i take that back. i would have done the same even if i knew the outcome.

it amazes me how hurt i am. why cant i just wave it aside with absolute nonchalance. like acknowledge that u were merely a passing phase in my life. and brush it aside off my shoulder with a flourish. and den skip away. like u.

in actual fact i tot i cld. as long as i filled my life up with other things. other friends. other commitments. i tot i cld just laugh it off. but it turns out i cant.

i guess at e end of the day, i hate being discarded like an unwanted item of the past. mayb once i had my uses. maybe once upon a time we had fun. and maybe now u just foudn someone to take my place. thats sad. cause i dun tink ill find someone to take urs. or maybe i just treasure u too much.

in the past, i could easily answer ppl when they asked bout u. now.. i can only reply with a fake air of non-chalance tt u are bz with this and bz with that. and that i haven seen u in ages too. but everytime i have to say that, my heart lurches for a few seconds. den i stop myself.

i guess im sorry that in more ways then one, i might have caused this to happen. but if everything has to crumble cause of that, i guess, it must have been very weak. but. well. whats e use of buts. its over isnt it.

i guess when a human, being a human, when she puts in her all, expects something of equal back. if not equal, prob sufficient enuff to sustain her. but she cant do that her all her life. she will break. she hates it when she feels lost. out of control of her life, her feelings her emotions.

im sorry once again. for the frienship. and may time heal all the wounds that i have unwittingly slashed.

and dun bother askin me bout it ppl. i aint gonna say. insecurities like these arent meant to be verbally voiced out.

tralala

its the season to..BID. hahaha.

i guess as we progress from yr1 to yr3, everything inevitably becomes easier. cause by now,, everyone has a better inclination of how it works.. how to bid.. and what to bid for. but i guess we will never be prepared enuff for NOT GETTING OUR BIDS. hahaha.

so looks like ill be taking :

Business Processes with Jon, Sab, Ade and Alf i think

Consumer Behaviour with Lian

Marketing Reserach Methods with Lian

Human Capital Management with Jon, Sab

looking at my timetable.. theres such a big difference as compared to last sem. and prob the sems before. i used to have alot of 330 classes. and so far. i have NONE. ZERO. ZILCH. haha. its blardi amazing. lets hope minsy wakes up. no la. also partly cause all the marketing classes are all 1.5 hr classes. irritating in its own ways. cause minsy will somehow skip the classes cause its only 1.5 hrs. hahahahha. which laos mean ill be in sch more often. nehnehpok.

and now im left with one mod. so far if everything goes successfully, ill have two exams. so i can afford to take one more exam.. haha IF I WAN THAT IS. wanted to take gene cell with lian and ps.. but the only biddable gene cell collides with HCM. and the other gene cell class wld prob be too expensive to bid for. hahaha. sian. and den we decided on sci exploration. but it collides withh ps's ethics class or corp reporting is she manages to shake her ethics off. ahh. all this would mean nothing to non-smu readers. haha sorry for boring u all man. and that said.. if no one else can take ge with me.. i can be adventurous and go take music east and west. or bahasa melayu. HAHAHA. or get duped by jon and take his stupid tues 830 hr class. and of cos i dun tink i will fall for his 'CAN WAKE UP ONE LA' rants. one sem was bad enuff. hahaha. im not a morning person. lemme enjoy my late morning days can. at least for the next two years. haha. and the amts to bid for arent even settled yet.. i can feel the panic buttons going off in me.

and my resolution to not take GEs until i do local exchange next sem cause the GEs there are soar much easier and fun has failed i guess. partly cause i have tis feeling i might not do it at all. with the nagging thought that plans to do it with my nus friends might jus fall thro in e end. and e hassle of registering for local exchange i guess. well. lets ttake things as they come la.

so as it goes.. im majoring in marketing and HR. unlike most ppl who chose their majors by selection process, i chose mine by elimination. hahha. i guess its also due to the inherent belief that whatever i study might not even be related to what im stuyding la..so what e hell. as long as im not studying stuff i cant even stand right? but i was pretty troubled over what majors to take.

just realized the hols have flown past. and it will fly past before i know it. and i think ill be very very bz man when i get thrown into the hustle and bustle of school.

just realzied i gotta lead the freshmen this year at convocation as rep from Bizcom. hahaa. sucks lei. but that was when i saw my first crush from smu la. when i was a freshie of cos. in his oh-so-smart powersuit. and look. now im gonna do it too. sian. hahaa.

finally meeting the twoc pple! dying. to. see. them. man.

i do miss quite a couple of other pple. but i have this feeling its a one-sided affair. next weeks gonna be a bz week.. with work piled up every other day. must get jon's stuff done soon man.

oh! happy birthday ivan zeng! =) mr 4th of july!! be honoured im e first to call! supper soon yea?