was going to leave already when itchy fingers me decided to read my archives for fun. and boy luckily im alone in the office. tears fell as i read the entry for my aunt. i still miss her alot. like really alot. i wish she was here when my cousin permed her hair. when my cousin started poly. when my cousin got her first B in maths. when my cousin jumped to me excitedly and told me she wants to watch spongebob squarepants. i wish she was here when we ate out first family dinner outside. the first one without her. felt weird to have no one asking me whether i want more rice. i wish she was there during mothers day when i bought her the carnation.
bout a mth ago when i went to give my cousin tuition, i needed to use the toilet which the nearest one was the one in her room. as i gingerly walked in, i tried to stop myself from looking at the big empty bed which she laid on most of the time for the past year. but i did. i remember how she told me there her daughters have had enough of this whole sickness. and how she tried so hard to catch her breath and how she vomitted after. i remember how her frail body would be propped against the left side of the bed where the water dispenser and the breathing aid would be next to her.
i still remember. and ill never forget.
i still miss u. are u listening to us up there?
i love u.
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She is listening. and she noes that u miss and the rest of ur family misses her alot. And i am sure that she noes her children are in good hands. with such a caring and adorable niece like u. i believe she is watching all over u guys. smiling to herself. she is in a happy place baby. she is.. :)
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