why why why am i so stupid.

i believed in you. i believed in us. my whole life was centred on us.

i really cant function at all dont you understand

i haven eaten anything much the whole day cept for the little bit of noodles i had to eat. but even after that i only felt like puking.

i dont feel like doing anything. i just want to hole up and sleep. which i did.

i dont feel like talking to any humans. but you.

why dont you believe in us.

why do you have to hurt so much. and that sucks because when u hurt so much i cant tell you how it hurts more for me.

and when u hurt so much. u hurt because u love. or u hurt because i love. why.

i dont think i can handle myself anymore. im like this crumbling piece of shit. im ready to crumble all the time. i just want to stay in one corner all by myself and sleep.

if my aunt's death took a chunk of me. you will take away 50 chunks of me.

and i dont know whats gonna be left.

why do you hurt so much. why.

i wanted to just go over to your place tonight even thou ure not coming home. to just hide under the blankie. in our memories. with bunnylove bolt thumper and thumpee. they'd understand how much i love you.

im really scared now. i dont know what our lives will be. if you leave me what am i gonna do. ill never talk to anybody again.

and what will happen to you.

what will happen to us.

from when did this us disappear from your mind. what happened to working hard for our future.