how do you quit someone who's everywhere.

you're like heroin. im addicted.
but its harmful to me.

i went to tamp for lunch.
at least i finished the fishballs.

i saw bunnies everywhere.
every single effing place.

in that gift shop where i wanted to see whether can buy wedding bears for peishy.
i see a bear clutching onto a bunny.
that bunny looks like bunny love.
the limp sort.

the petshop beside the food court.
there were 2.
one was the poofy fur kind.
reminds me of you.
thumper and thumpee inside the toy catcher in the arcade.
the kind that we have.
i wonder about thumper and thumpee.
are they still there.
den i remembered i wanted to bring you to this arcade to try the rollercoaster simulator.
i remembered the arcade card we had from the dhoby ghaut NEL arcade.
and i promised to go there once every 2 weeks.
i miss the arcade.
and shooting games.
mario car game.
basketball games.
so many.

den even when i accompanied my colleague to buy a pacifier.
i see bunnies.
bunnies on balloons.
and that bunny on that balloon.
looked like bunnylove.

when i wanted to buy a small cup of coke from macs.
i saw that seaweed shaker fries are out again.
i remembered the countless late night macs.
i remember you shaking the bag of shaker fries with anticipation.
and digging into the fries with fervour.

and i didnt feel like drinking my coke anymore.

as i walked past the liang cha store.
i thought of you.
are u well yet.

sushi store where i bought the sushi we smuggled in to cinema.
you.

its you you you you and you.

but i know for you.
its her.

why is it like that.

Dear God, Why.

If absence makes the heart fonder.
i have had enough of this fond shit.

What am i going to do.