im supposed to be sleeping.

but i cant.

sigh.

tmr needa wake up at 6am.

thank God for events like this
to keep me going.

needa get high on happy potion.
so i can forget everything.

this dull ache throbbing.
keeps me alive.
but makes me hurt like crazy.

i dont want you back.
but i cant not love you.
you may regret.
but you dont want me back.

i dont know what you can do.
actually nothing.
i dont know what anybody else can do.
maybe nothing.
worse.
i dont know what i can do.

so just like that.

hey.
what about giving me what i want.

oh ya i forgot.
not ur problem.

you will continue with ur life.
with her.

i will continue with mine.

but i dont know what to do.

just like those stories u always read.

feels like a zombie.
ill laugh
joke.
hang out with a million pple.
work.
shop.
but the heart is so battered and torn apart.

不要再想了
他对你的关心
只不过是一时的事而已

一转眼
他就在跟着她说着甜言蜜语
哪里可能是真心的

神经病
人格分裂
还是虚伪
还是假装

算了
你也不要跟他一起发疯了

那个
你想嫁的人
已经死了

每个人都说
是他的损失
是他看不到你的美
是他不配

王八蛋

可是
为什么是我呢
最痛苦的是我

都不是我的错

但是承受一切的却是我

什么屁

最惨的是
我还是那么的爱你

什么屁

我想我疯了