today i took leave.

most of my leave was always reserved for you.
for us.
for anything that may come up.
for anything that i may wanna help u with.

i had originally intended to take leave the tues aft my bday.
so we could go sentosa.
take the luge and ride bicycle.
visit underwater world.

but now no need to save already.


you slept so late last night.
i wonder where you went.
Supper?

Then it hit me.
yea.
maybe she's better for you.
in terms of spending time with you.

you couldnt give me your time.
and frankly.
neither could i.
i squeezed myself dry.
but it still wouldnt be enuff.

she could watch late night movies with you wo falling asleep.
she could eat supper till 7am with you, even on weekdays.
she could help you out throughout the day when you have events and stuff.
she could entertain you throughout the night and not doze off.
she could sleep with you till the next afternoon, and not have to rush off in the mornings.

those are the things i think i never could.


Y said.
the point of breaking up now.
is sad. heartbreaking.
but isnt that the whole point?
Before you get married.
You still have the choice to decide to break up.
so you dont end up divorcing.

so heartbreakingly true.
he might as well could have been saying it to me, about me.


B said.
He's in denial.
I dont know how to break it to him.

The similarities in both situations are too starkly obvious.

There's no better way to break it to him.

Cause eventually he will be broken anyway.

Just Do It.
The only thing you can do is to soften the consequences/impact.

It's very screwed up.
And the recipient suffers the brunt of it all.

But frankly.
How else can you do it.


Rationally.
I have seen the light.
There's no point.
No point holding tightly.
No point if you dont love me anymore.
i will let it go.
i will let you go.

If only my heart will listen to my brain for once.



Conclusion of the Day (From Bra):
Applies to both Men and Women

"A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love
listens but doesn’t believe
and leaves before she is left."

Marilyn Monroe.



Lets all stop being nice people.
and just be wise.
Haven't you heard?
Nice people always finish last.