alone in the office again.
love being alone in the office. so serene.
i can surf, work, slack.

i have not been doing well.
think its the PMS.

im so glad my bday's over.
i hope the pain that came along will be over too.

Thank God for lynnie.
really. Thank God.
If not for her, i may have internally combusted and exploded from pent up sadness and angst.

i miss being bright eyed bushytailed.
u know how sometimes u have such a long deep restful sleep.
when u wake up. ur eyes can open immediately and u feel super sunshiney and ready to conquer the world?
i miss that feeling.
nowadays my bright eyes and bushy tail is usually only enabled with eyeliner, mascara and my hairdryer.

i wonder why.
i wonder why you did that.
but its ok.
shant guess anymore.
not that it will do me any good.

i guess it may be the PMS talking.

But i think no matter how hard i try.
i may never ever be really truly prepared should one day i see the status-es in FB change.
or if i see you 2 outside.

its like.
how do u prepare for something you totally dont know about.

its like exams. you can study the material. memorize.
but this. what can i do to prep.
drill it into myself maybe. or imagine seeing u two together.


i have had such weird dreams lately.
i dont even know whether they are dreams anymore.
or merely just my thoughts.
i cant remember.


today's monday.
tomorrow's tuesday.