Im finally up here. at the Tokyo Tower.
bright lights around me.
just like fallen stars from the sky.

i am here. finally here.
to complete a dream we both dreamt about.
but alone.
just me.

you always said. we still have lots of time.
we have eternity with each other.
and you will wait for me.

but i never knew there may be no forever after tomorrow.

With every breath i take, my heart aches.
This is how missing you feels like.
it lives inside me within me everywhere in me.
it is me.

Humming a song you like is painful.
reading a letter you wrote is painful.
even Silence is painful.

Regret is painful.
It hurts with every breath you take.
The pain flows in your blood, your veins, your body.

Regret not being caring enough hurts
Not truly understanding you, knowing you hurts.

Not being able to see you when i miss you
the most painful of all.


Never saw the misery in ur eyes
Such stubborness in loneliness.
you let me free
let me fly
but you wait back there
all trapped and alone.

You never told me that you were weak.
You needed me to depend on too.
And so
i pretended i didnt know
and chucked the worries aside
and i went my way.


i promise to never lie about us again.
ill hug you as tight as i love you.
Every smile i smile is fake.
i drift along like like a mindless soul.
If only you were here.

i promise to never let u wait again.
Be with you wherever you go whatever you want.

im becoming more and more like a shell
afraid of getting touched

If only we could turn back the clock
i just want you back.