wide awake.

i often amaze myself with my brilliant (subjective!) analytical skills.
or over imagination.
or what u like to call.
assumption.

maybe the brain cells are better put to other more constructive uses.
like finding the cure to starvation.
or how to make rainbow coloured cookies.


its been like 2 mths.
but it feels like forever.


the heart gave a lil whine of protest and cry.
but its all okay.



it may have come at just the right time.



2009 is coming to a close.
who would have thought it will end up this way.

new year.
new beginnings.

i mean it.

J said.
may you find a new guy under the mistletoe.

i still want the same guy under the mistletoe.
but in a totally different way.


i wonder where u are.
but its no longer mine to worry about, is it?

i wish you well.
yellow pill, deep sleep, sweet dreams and smiles.
smiles.
lots of smiles.