u know all throughout my childhood, even up till now.
i always had this same dream.

its the lamest.
but really very very real.

i could fly.


yes giggle all u want!



but no its not the flying sort like superman kind.
arm raised and off he goes.

i always have had the dream of like slowly suspending myself in mid air and slowly declining to the ground.

like say. if i jump off from high ground.
i can jump! and then ill slowly decline at a slow speed.
controlling the speed and direction at whcih i fall.

plus all the time i would still feel fear! that ill just drop and die!



in my dreams.
ill always feel fear
but always still have the courage to do so.

and it was always v real.
like i feel i could do that in real life.



nice.

dont know whats the point of this entry.

but i wish sometimes i had that kinda reckless faith.
bravery.
and somehow things will work out for me.