im sorry.

so when she wants to give up. i guess we shld let her give it all up. but we cant bear to. the amt of tears we shed in this week is equivalent to those shed in a year. i know i understand. but i dowan to understand. i wanna be a fucking kid and scream and shout. but i cant. i wanna be a kid and just bawl. but i cant. the tears just well up in my eyes and i hold dem all back. just like the whole family. why din i spend more time with u. why din i go upstairs and talk to u more. why din we shift dinner upstairs. why din i convince u to go out more. why. im so fucking sorry.

if u wanna go. we will take care of all ur worries. i hope u were reassured. i will do my best to take care of them, all through their lives, in all aspects, till they grow up. and popo too. dont worry.



God please bless her. u might not be able to cure her. but at least make her sleep more restful. let her be comfy and not let her go thro anymore pain. lastly. let her go peacefully without any worries.




the tears really dont stop.