i seriously think im going a bit crazy. but short of running straight to him, which will totally drive him crazy, which will then drive me crazier. its like a phrase i always use, digging you own grave den jumping into it yelling "quick throw more soil on me!"

li mentioned (hi you! the only one reading). she said being idealistic would be what would keep you going. haha. so true lei. my smart ass friend. so bloody freaking true.

When we first had the quarrel during our 2 year, i tot we will come out of it stronger. i did. did you?

actually, the moment, that moment i poured my heart out to you one crazy day after we watched a movie togehter. that show cant rem what shit. the one where the guy shoots the other guy but actually its another guy. but yea i still rem that day, it was a late night show. the entire cinema was empty save for us. den we walked around, headed to kopitiam opposite SMU, sat outside and chatted the whole night. that night that night. the night i poured my heart out to you, the night i cried like crazy. that night u told me i look quite pretty with my tears brimming in my eyes. that night i might not have known it yet but i had already decided to give my whole life to you. because you were the only living thing in this world i poured my heart out to.

and if you no longer want to be that person. i dont think i can do it again.

was just looking at some nice photos. when u still had ur curly hair. ahhaha wo rebonding. when i still had short hair. we were so happy. you giving me the sad clowny face. you giving me the smiley face. scunchy face simon. bunny twitch face simon. so many.

can u remember?