The english one for the Chinese Noobs!
its loosely translated. so its quite chui. just a rough draft.
if its English exams, confirm fail the summary. haha.

Who are you thinking about now?
Her? Shld be la.

Actually it doesnt matter anymore.

If its her.
yea.
Thats cool.
It hurts.
Very painful.
But ill get over it.

You and Her.
Pain.
Cry.
But cool.
I'll get over it.

Its not fair.
But fuck it.
Nothings fair.
Pain.
very very very pain.
But cool.
Ill get over it.

You.
I hate you.
But nah it will disappear soon enough.

Tmr maybe you 2 will be happy again.
tralala.
Good god. you may even get together!
ha.
sweet and lovey again.
maybe more photos?
pain.
maybe very pain.
god damn farking pain.
but its okay.
ill deal with it.

Im growing.
You?
You can continue where u are.
at the same spot.

Someday.
One day.
You will understand.
You will remember.

Goodnight world.
Goodnight you.

Goodnight.

Tonight.
I will depend on myself.
Just myself to make it through.

Im broken now.
but ill glue myself back.

I'll be fine.

_______________________

Are you feeling sad?
Because he doesnt appreciate you
No matter how well you treat him
No matter how hard you try
It's not that he doesnt see your efforts girl
He's just pretending not to
Or rather
He doesn't even want to see them

You think you love him alot.
You think that nobody can love him as much as you do.
You try ur utmost best
more than you can even give
Good God!
You even value him more than yourself
He's always on your mind
When you dont hear from him, you worry yourself sick.
So bad that you almost go crazy.
But have you ever thought about it?
It is no longer your responsibility to.
In fact
He's probably hiding from you.
He cannot take it
He cannot take you
He cannot take it that you are so good to him

He doesnt care about how much you are giving up for him.
Your love is a burden.
a heavy burden.
This burden makes him wanna leave you.
Because he doesnt want to owe you anything.
So stop thinking for him.Stop worrying about him.Stop caring for him.

Stop messaging him.
Stop looking for him.
Yes you may just want to talk to him.
Just a casual chat.
That's normal right.
Not that daunting a task.
But he doesnt think that way.
Remember
What you think
is not what he thinks.
What you feel
is not what he feels.

Do you really love him without expecting anything in return?
Ask your heart.
Be Honest.
Do you really not expect anything from him?
If so.
Why are you sad?
If you really dont expect anything in return,
Why will you be sad?
So.
Dont think that you are very noble for loving him.
You're not.

You think that he cannot do without you.
You think that other people, other girls cant do a better job than you.
But
You are not the person he wants
No matter how much you do, how much better you are
In his eyes
You will never be as good as that other girl that did nothing
Someone has taken over that job of worrying over him
you can save ur energy
That person was never you.
So stop trying to fight for it

Maybe you were once deeply in love.
but Please remember.
That was in the past.
Past Tense.
its over.
If both of you were really meant to be
Then you wouldnt have broken up
It doesnt matter who broke up with whom
Because the relationship was broken at one point
It doesnt matter who's right or wrong
Because the conclusion is the same.
You are no longer together.
If one wants to get back together with the other
but the other doesnt
Then this relationship is over.

He's the rational one.
Because he understood that this relationship will not work out.
But you keep telling yourself otherwise.
All the rubbish about
How deeply you were in love once upon a time
How its not possible how two of you can break up with a love this strong.
But dont you see.
You're just making it harder for yourself.
It's not gonna make him turn back and take you back.
Unless both parties have the intention of making it work.
You need both hands to clap.
You cant do it alone.

So just stop your wishful thinking.
stop hoping
and cast that hope away.
Stop wallowing in self pity
Or make urself miserable
There's absolutely no meaning in it.
He's not going to turn back for you because you are pathetic or miserable or sad.
He's not.

You say
Yes you understand everything. you do.
But you just cant do it.
Its not that you cant babe.
Its that you dont want to.
Its not that you're afraid of forgetting him
You are afraid of him forgetting you
Don't say that he cant bear to leave you
In actual fact, you cant bear to leave him.
If he cant bear to leave you
he would not have left you alone
The only one hanging on like a crazy bitch is you.
The insensible one is you.

Loving him is not your fault.
Caring for him is not your fault
Not being able to control your emotions is not your fault
But that's you.
Other people are not obliged to accept your selfless love.
So if you love him
And he doesnt love you
Please love him silently quietly secretly
Dont let him know
Just love him from a corner
Even if you have to force yourself to do it.
Grit your teeth and do it.

Silly girl.
Forget it all.
Everything that you miss, you remember, you had
Those are just memories
Losing someone is not scary
The scary thing is not facing up to your loss.

Silly girl.
You cant let it go because you gave too much
Once you decide to give this much of youself away
it will always remain embedded in your heart
like a deeply rooted thorn
Dont avoid it
Dont try to forget it
That will just make it more painful
Make your way around the thorn
and find the blue skies beyond the thorn
Where your dreams lie.

Silly girl
Start having new habits.
your own habits.
Get used to not having a human alarm clock
Get used to being alone
Get used to celebrating your birthday alone
Get used to walking alone
Get used to going to the places you used to go, the things you used to do.
You cant avoid it. You really cant.
So be brave and face reality.
And reality is
He has left.
And this chapter has ended.

Silly girl.
Take a good look at yourself in the mirror.
This miserable weak sallow person in the mirrow
This is you too.
You growing up.
But this You.
is dying slowly.
The new You will soon emerge
You will have new goals and a new future
All these setbacks
are merely part and parcel of growing up
Be the best you can be.
Even if you have to do it alone.

Silly girl.
Hush Hush.
Just Cry it all out.
Let it all out.
Open your wounded heart
and Vent it all out.
Use all the methods possible to let the pain all out.
Words, Music, Alcohol.
Whatever works.
After that
Wipe your tears against you sleeve
Stand up
and be strong.

You see.
Actually your loss wasnt that bad.
There are still so many ppl around you that care for you.
who love you.
So you're not alone.
Its this loss.
that allows you to see what you really have.
And you have so much.

Dont cry. Dont cry anymore.
its not worth it. Its really not worth it.
Close this chapter.
Let it go.
Dont feel let down.
Dont feel unfair.
Dont feel disgruntled
Dont feel pissed off.
Accept it.

Start a new journey
See new sights
Meet new people
Have new relationships
Do what you have to do.
There's so much to do

Silly girl.
Everyone has faith in you.
So you must have faith in yourself.
You're strong, determined, excited, enthusiastic, optimistic and cool
You were, and you will be
One day,
The silly cute girl with endless optimism and a zest for life will come back.

Silly girl.
Your life may seem black and white now.
Colourless, grim and silent.
Dont allow yourself to dwell in this silence.
It will kill you.

It may be a heartbreaking decision.
But it was right.
You may not want this right now
but for youself
you will have to learn to let it go.
Becoming stronger, better, prettier, happier
is the best kind of care you can give him




Now.
i can give you my best, my utmost best
but you dont need it
you dont care for it
you dont want it
you dont give a damn about it
you dont treasure it

But someday
When you're hurt
and you think of me
By then
i wont be like me now
i wont be able to give you my utmost best like now

Because you will not be the most important person in my life anymore
You will not be the person i treasure the most anymore