feel better now.
guess im just the sort that needs to get it off my chest.

breathe minsy breathee.


watched xx's proposal video.
so sweet.
it bought a tear to my eye.


xmas shopping was quite successful today.
love xmas.
i love buying presents for pple.
and the joy and glee when they open their presents.
when you tell them why u bought them this or that.
its love.
of cos i'll love it if ppl buy me presents too.
but really the love from giving
is so much much more rewarding.


i miss buying you presents.
choosing you presents.
fretting over what to get.
thinking "i wonder if you'd like it."
whether you will be surprised.
the hug and the thank you that comes after.
the excited lil boy glee when u unwrap or stare expectantly into the plastic bag.
whether it will put a smile to ur face.


next life.
i want to be santa claus.
female version.
can wear sequins.
black and gold and hotpink.
i only need rudolph right?
santa claus works alone one.
with his elves.
and can give presents to everyone.

hohoho.