i teared again once this morning when i read a sms from a friend.

and again a minute ago when i saw that message.

and i wondered to myself why.

the messages were all encouraging messages.
about how someone missed having me ard.
missed talking to me
and how i will have a better life ahead.
how they were proud of me.

it was nothing.

but somehow my heart just lurched and cringed.

very xin suan.

and the tears just fell.

and i really wondered to myself
what the hell
what were the tears for?