its like being in a nightmare but never ever being able to wake up.

because it wont be the last time.
i know so.


its like how bella jumped off the cliff.
when she emerged from the water.
she felt triumphant.

till the huge waves came.
one by one
knocking the air out of her.
tossing her like a pancake.
lifeless and limp.


i want to know.
but then again i dont.
its no longer mine to know.
but i want to know.


but.
its just like that.
i wont.

ill remember all this.
make me remember all this.

ill cry.
let me cry.

and ill be okay.