just came back from dinner.
dinner was good
simple and nice.

but i wasnt happy.
it was a very frontal thing.
i laugh.
i joke.
i eat.

but my heart.
was terribly unhappy.

something must have happened.
either internally or externally.

but the thing is i dont know what.

i dont feel good.
all the newfound optimism seemed to have vanished.
or dissipated.
=(

i dont know what happened.

but the heart just feels terribly constricted.

i just feel like hiding in the bathroom to cry.

if this is one of those moments.
please let it pass soon.

i cant bear the misery.

this.
has to be the worst birthday ever of my life.