People like to run
and avoid
avoid
escapism

i run
you run too


i re-read ur smses

its so different

if u were completely honest
which i know u are
despite what everyone says
i know you are

why like that?

everything on fb
everything on twitter

its so different from what u said.

if the online shit is all not real
den why like that
the show is getting a lil too genuine for me

if it is real.
den why like that.

its so confusing.
why are u doing what u are doing
do u like her
dont you wanna get together with her
arent u sick of being in this together-but-not-together status with her and u cant wait to declare her as ur girlfriend
isnt she the one u miss all the time now
dont u look forward to tuesdays wth her now

doesnt all that mean anything to u

even as i type all that
my heart aches

even as i re read those smses
my heart aches

what are you thinking really

shes some escapism mode for you?
where you dont have to think
just smile
flirt and be happy?

i really dont know.

and now im stuck in this turmoil
yet again.

i can do everything in this world
to forget
to make the pain go away
everything

but my heart
i cant control the way it feels
or not

i just want to know
what is it u are hiding
what is it you are thinking.

come clean.
be honest.
stop running.

and maybe then ill stop running too.