took the morning off again.
it seems like i always take the mondays off.
=(
how nice if it was more fruitfully spent.

now its just spent.
nursing the insane headache.

everytime i see ur rock and roll over
i only can think of
ya roll over and die.

it was a difficult night.

actually im not sleepy.

just dont feel like im up to working hard this morning.


love's supposed to be simple.
not complicated
humans make it complicated

if you love me.
just love me.
dont over complicate things by thinking other crap.

but if you dont love me.
i shouldnt over complicate things.
by missing you so much.
i shdl walk away

see its just us humans.
it really shld be this simple.

dont we all have enough other problems in life.
we still want to complicate love and cause more?
for what? brain spoil.
love's supposed to be the antidote, the answer, the solution, the comfort.


many years back
when i was still waitressing
my boss told me
when you look for a boyfriend next time.
you must remember
everything else is not impt
the most impt thing is to look for someone you can be urself with
you dont have to pretend
you dont have to hide
you can tell this person everything
you can laugh with this person
you can cry with this person
you can be ugly in front of this person
you can be silly in front of this person
you can sleep like a pig in front of this person
thats the most impt quality of all

i remembered his kind advice
and it was true.
everything else really doesnt matter.