Karma

just had the funniest convo ever with a JC senior, Dodz.

im glad my blog is kinda private. haha. so i can blog about it!

Dodz was one of the ppl i met on a regular basis for weekly secret rendezvous back in JC.
we would meet once a week, same time, at a secret place.

the council room!

cause we had free periods. i didnt need to take chn cause i did decently for higher chinese in Os. haha. and we always slacked in the council room to nap. hahaha.

we had a strange sort of friendship. and we talked bout all sorts of crap. about his life, my life, results, crushes. but everything we spoke about stayed within the 4 walls. it started off as occasional den it became eh lets meet to bitch. we had a steady sort of friendship.

his best friend back then, as most of my jc buds would know, was GA. who was my orientation facilitator. whom i had a lil crush on during first 3 mths. we had a lil thing going on. i tot i liked him! i really did. he was a sweet boy. i remembered he even noticed i changed my ear studs. how amazing is that. i tot he would be the second bf after ivan. until the day i got my Olevel results. when i was happy. when i received messages at the same time from him and my ex bf, ivan (whom im friends with now!). i realized i didnt give two hoots about GA. it was always ivan.

so i ended if off with GA.

and broke his heart.
i dint think i broke it that much.
but apparently i did.

which reminds me now.
i think im getting karma now for breaking his heart. =(

i knew for a while he was still into me.
cause i joined council after.
and all e council seniors seemed to know me by name.

but hey it was only 3 mths!
and we didnt even go on any date i think!
it was lots of OG outings and smses only!

so i din think the crush lasted.
we didnt talk much anyway after their council stepped down.

and..

i just found out that.
he had a major crush one me all throughout.
"stalkerish" as put by dodz.

GA didnt talk to dodz for almost 1 yr.
cause he tot dodz was interested in me.
and they were best friends! same class! sit side by side sort!
OH MAN. total madness
i would never fall for an indian dude. hahaha.

and that there was one time in uni.
i bumped into dodz and GA aft class one day.
its was dodz first year in smu. GA was in nus.
i dont recall this at all until dodz told me.
but..
GA found out frm Dodz i was in smu
and they planned to bump into me
and waited at the biz block for me.
oh man. and i rem GA saying (as Dodz kindly reminded me),
You have grown fatter.
WTF.
hahaa.
cheebye.

den Dodz realized
oh man
GA's still bitter.

oh man.

all that info is all so amazing.

and despite the hilarity of it all.
im sorry i broke GA's heart.
really quite sorry.
though i dont really know how it all happened.

hes a nice decent boy.
i do hope hes happy now.

which is why im getting karma now.

bah.

same for G.
who's such a good friend and guy.
who's such a gentleman. helping me put earthworms as bait. plucking the prawns out for me. and i almost murdered him by flailing the prawns in his face.

who Gordon and Mich mercilessly remind me all the time of how when he got thrown into the pool during a class party. he didnt care about his wet phone, wet whatever but was frantically laying out this small piece of paper to dry on the bbq pit. and of cos Gordon had to go kaypoh and see.

it was one of those messages i had written out to all my council mates. like "study hard! good luck for exams!" that sort. i wrote alot of those msges to my council mates back in JC. all the time. it was nothing to me. but alot to him.

i never even gave G a chance.

so Dear G, im sorry i broke ur heart. in a little way.
i hope you find a nice girlfriend deserving of you! cause ure a good boy!
and im sure you will.

i always thought i was a nice person.
but after tonights convo with Dodz.

i dont think so anymore.

never thought i was the heartbreaker.



Guess that's why Karma is biting me back in my ass.

sigh.