My Heart.

this sat afternoon
i woke up with a splitting headache
all i had was a daiquiri!
which was delish!

love mojitos, daiquiris and magharitas!

last saturday
i may have woken up
depressed
mopey

but this saturday
its all good

no things have not changed.
but maybe i have changed.
no i have not changed.
but something's changed.

some things in life.
you cant change.
esp matters of your heart.
who you love.
who you cant love.

so deal with your love.

cause seriously
just as blonde bluntly put it.
how bad can it get.
if she were to plot the entire happenings on a timeline.
it really cant get any worse.
u have gone thro every single kind of BS possible.
and though shes glad i did.
she has no idea how i wake up in the mornings and go thro the happenings of life.
but if i could
and i did.
the only way's up!!!

frankly
i have no idea how long these feelings of peace will last.
but for as long as they do.
ill enjoy each min of it.

i have lost so much weight my jeans no longer fit me well.
that sucks!

mich wrote this phrase yest
"my eyes might not always be set on u, but my heart will always be"
beautiful. brilliant.
a tinge of tragic-ness though.
i hope i never have to move there. but who knows?
the eyes part. the heart part.
lets take it a step at a time yea.

i do wish still.
esp on lonely nights.
friday nights. saturday nights. sundays.
that i had you by my side.

i do wish still.
that things will work out between us.
in a twinkling of the eye.

but i do know you too.
ur space. ur time.
you can have them all.
and i hope you smile at the end of it all.
and come back for me
at the end of the rainbow.

ill be good.

Dear God,
Thank You.